For My Mom

I have been thinking about starting a blog for years, but talked myself out of it every time. I didn't think I had much to bring to the table and offer others. The other night I was cooking dinner when a little voice said "Tell your story. Open up about what it means to lose a mom and be a mom." My mom has been gone now for a little over 2 years and it's time I open up and talk about the worst moments of my life.  The ones that still take my breath away, knock me down and never stay to far off my mind. Even though I have pain in my heart I have so many bright and beautiful things to write about. Raising little boys, celebrating birthdays, holidays, and all the wonderful moments in between. Life is incredibly beautiful and everyday my goal is to never let my family forget that. My hope is that this blog not only comforts me, but brings comfort and inspiration to someone else. There is so much life to live after losing a loved one and I hope my story conveys that.

She is gone
You can shed tears that she is gone
Or you can smile because she has lived
You can close your eyes and pray that she will come back
Or you can open your eyes and see all that she has left
Your heart can be empty because you can’t see her
Or you can be full of the love that you shared
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday
Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday
You can remember her and only that she is gone
Or you can cherish her memory and let it live on
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back
Or you can do what she would want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.
David Harkins

For my mom and family I'm going to smile, open my eyes, love and go on. For her and all of you out there with a love for life this blog is for you. XOXO